On Goodlin #4

I am sure we surprised a few of you and left your minds reeling with a few questions with the announcement of our upcoming Goodlin :O)

This pregnancy is a huge reason why my blog and my life has been a little slower lately...... compared to all of my pregnancies this first trimester and into the second has been the hardest, just lots of really debilitating, yucky sickness, but lets not linger on that, it always eventually goes away and then I love being pregnant.

And you thought moving with 3 kids was hard......haha lets just add on a pregnant mom to the scenario.  Anyone want to help? You know everything always happens at once for us, right?

OH yeah, and that would be a huge reason why we are moving, adding another little Goodlin to the household, we were past max capacity.

I have been so nervous and anxious about telling people about this pregnancy.  I've heard people stop congratulating you after 3 kids..... and I have been afraid of what people will think, that I am crazy, and 4 kids is way to many,  and why would we ever do that?

Part of the reason that I think this is because I used to be that person, that one who thought having lots of kids was kind of crazy (sorry mom I don't really think you are crazy).  But it is amazing how God changes a persons heart over time.  After Norah came into our life every perception about what I thought our family was suppose to look like changed.  My heart changed and I began to better understand Gods view point a little better, what a precious gift children are, and He calls us to expand his Kingdom through our own children and that He didn't have a max size for our family set at 3 children, no matter what others thought.  I know this is not for every family, some are great with 1 child, others like 10.  I have just better learned to not care so much about how other people choose to build their families, God calls each of us differently.

Not just that, but in our hearts we were not done.  After we had Sarah and I bought her a matching Christmas stocking, but I didn't just buy her one, I bought another one for a total of 6 matching stockings... just in case someday we needed another matching one.

 I couldn't answer the question, "are you guys done yet?"  It was always, "I don't know".

 I couldn't get rid of any big obnoxious bulky baby items.... and they kind of drive me crazy, but I couldn't let them go.  Even when my mom asked me if she could get rid of baby stuff at her house, I told her "No".

And Brett, he has always been on board for one more child and is more than excited! If it wasn't for my  bi-polar. " I want another baby,"  I don't want another baby,"  "I want another baby," " I don't want another baby, " now I am crying at the thought of not being able to have another baby, we may have been pregnant even sooner.   Brett cares much less about what other people think, and is more annoyed by the comments of a few that "it better be a boy this time."

And another thing that has been very hard is knowing those that are close to us that are struggling with infertility.   There is almost a sense of guilt knowing that becoming pregnant has not been an issue for us, but for some very special people it has been extremely hard and heartbreaking situation.  I have so much hope for them, but my heart also hurts that they have to be reminded further by another person around them getting pregnant again.

And about the gender.  Yes, we will find out, as for telling others once we have found out, we aren't quite sure yet :O)  We are not having another child to try to have a boy, that is silly.  We simply want to have another blessing of a child, boy or girl.  And if it is a girl we will be more than thrilled, it is what we know, we have everything for a girl, and there are many things that would be so much easier.  We would be blessed with a boy as well, although we would be clueless as what to do and he certainly would have a lot of mommies.  So you do not need to be hopeful for us that it is a boy, just be hopeful that it is a healthy baby.  Heck, we have an adopted child and still have all girls, so nothing will surprise us.

Oh and by the way, I think it's a girl.  Because the sickness, the cravings, because we would be the family to have 4 girls and it would be amazing!

Also, it is just one baby, not 2, although that would have been hilarious, for like a minute

The girls are so very excited! 

The baby is due September 13th

We have known since the end of December and I knew right away because I woke up in the middle of the night "on fire!" so I knew my body had to be cooking something.

So love our hate us, think we are crazy or not.  This is our life.  The Goodlins.