One of the things that has been a barrier to me bonding fully to Norah is allowing myself to let go of Carrisa as her earthly mother. I have always felt that I am not honoring Carrisa, or taking something away from her by allowing myself to fully be Norah's mommy. Then I had one of Carrisa friends tell me, "God chose Carrisa to be Norah's mother for the first18 months of her life, now he has chosen you." That was a big deal for me to hear.
I hope people to not misunderstand. Carrisa is and will always be Norah's mommy, but right now on earth I am hers (still hard for me to grasp). Allowing myself to understand this has really made a huge difference in connecting with Norah. It is a strange dance, allowing myself to fully embrace the role of mommy to Norah while honoring and remembering my sister. It is not always easy.
We made a little video for Norah, now that she is adopted, from mommy and daddy. We want her to know how much we love her, and how much she belongs here, we want her to know she belongs with us!
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