Thursday, March 6, 2014

Why it's so different

You say I'm strong
You say I have endured so much already
You say I will make it through this, just like I have everything else

But this time it is so very different

It is my child

It is my sisters child

You see, I can be strong for me

But now I have to be strong for her

My heart breaks and I mourn for her losses

The daugther that has already lost so much....

a mother

and now a normal healthy life

She is only 4

with the weight of the world already on her shoulders

with a life that has already been filled with obstacles, heartache and difficulty

I would take it all from her if I could

the shots

the pain

the strict diet limitations

the loss of a mother

you say she will never know any different because she is only 4
but she will know....

she will see the siblings around her

the kids at school

the ones that can have a cookie or treat without a thought

or  that can eat a meal without a shot or a finger poke

or the ones that didn't lose their mother

It will be harder for her, but not impossible

I pray that in the midst of her hardest moments she will learn to rely and lean on the Lord and not push away from Him

I pray that she will overcome this difficult hand she has already been dealt

I still pray for a miracle DSC_0981


  1. Our God is bigger than diabetes. I am believing for full healing for this baby and praying for her and you! Love you Jen and Nory!

    1. You were the first person to pray and tell me that God can heal even autoimmune diseases, I haven't forgotten that!

  2. Jen,
    I know from personal experience that we serve a God of miracles. I shouldn't be here today. When I was 12, my body was ravaged by a bacteria infection, that then was followed by a secondary infection. I was in the hospital for a week at the last, and the only drug that could cure it, my body was resistant to. The doctors called my parents into the hall and told them they needed to say goodbye, that I wasn't going to make it. My mom's friend came, laid hands on me for hours, all thru the night - and by morning, life was returning to my body, the infection was gone and the doctors were baffled. But I wasn't...we serve a God of Miracles - and I am living proof.
    God can beat this. I will pray for a Miracle too. I believe God has big plans for her!
    Sending you love and prayers!

    1. Thank you for sharing Diane! I love stories of hope and such great miracles, I had no idea you went through any of that! How amazing what God did!

  3. There will be struggles, there is no denying that but she absolutely will have a long, happy and healthy life. Yes, there is a learning curve and no, I don't envy having to tell a 4+ year old she can't have a piece of cake when everyone else can but she will learn and adapt and probably amaze you in ways you can't even imagine. <3

    1. Thanks for your encouraging words Christy! I so wish it weren't just saying No to cake or other treats, diabetes has a lot of complexity to it, but I love you last phrase, "she will amaze you in ways you can't even imagine" that statement has so much hope in it, I love it!


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