homestudy #2

We had our 2nd home study for adopting Norah yesterday.  The social worker came to our house to meet the girls, inspect the house, and interview us more.  It went well and was pretty easy.  The girls did great  (not saying I didn't bribe them with treats)!  I actually thought it would be a lot more invasive than it really was.  As the social worker was leaving Maya turned to me and said really loud, "Can I get my treat now?"  and I am sure the lady heard......haha whoops.

The social worker interviewed me a lot about my past, my relationship with family members, and how I have processed all of the loss.  It is really hard for me to  go back and remember and discuss some things, I felt myself being very superficial, emotionless, and vague just so I wouldn't start crying.  I was afraid if I cried it would show her that I was emotionally unstable and not fit to take care of Norah.  The truth is maybe I am a bit emotionally unstable (aren't most women who just had a baby?).  I mean I have spent a lot of my life crying and I am kind of tired of crying, although I still do it way to often.

It feels like Norah is so much a part of our life now I can't even imagine what it would be like without her.  If something happened during the adoption process and we were unable to keep Norah we would be devastated!  Just a few short months left until we can officially adopt and we are praying everything goes smoothly!  We have been blessed to have no real big obstacles.

All we have to do now is wait..... (hopefully that is all).  Then once February comes we sign millions of papers, pay a large some of money, and then wait for a court date.

Look at her, already such a mommy, feeding her baby :O)