So I have been at home for 6 weeks now. I went back to work when Maya was only 6 weeks old, which seems crazy now! I think many women my age would love to stay at home with their children, many already do, and it is really a blessing.
It is a HUGE adjustment for me though. It is hard to just instantly become a stay at home mom of 3, 3 and under! For me so much of it is mental, of what I thought things were suppose to be like and what they really are. It's not like I am spending my days with one infant who sleeps all day, I am busy, ALL day! Sometimes I just feel so ill equip, like I don't know what I am doing, like I am not cut out for this. The days can get long and I miss my husband a lot. Some days even feel lonely............sigh.
I know I have the girls company, and they are so sweet and fun, but I am used to talking with adults on a daily bases and now I am lucky if I can pick up the phone when it rings. I am continually being asked, "where we going," "what we doing today," "what can my do now?" I wipe booties constantly, scrub marker off the carpet, and brush crusty hair. There are days when I feel like all I do is put the girls in time out or tell them "no," but then there are days where I have laughed harder than I can ever remember. My patience has been stretched to the max, but I also have never felt so much love.
I am really not trying to complain, just share what it had been like for me, how I feel. I love being at home with the girls, and I wouldn't change it! I would miss them terribly if I had to work right now, but being at home is not Cake. I finally understand why so many women can afford to stay at home with their kids, its because they can't go anywhere to spend money! It is quite an event to go anywhere right now.
I refuse to only remember this time in my life as a blur though (so many people have told me that is what it was for them). I want to enjoy the girls at these stages, because they are so close in age the cute toddler/babiness will go by fast!
If I wasn't at home, I wouldn't be able to enjoy times like these
The girls wearing my clothes
Taking Maya to Dance class
and seeing so much Love
it is a gift
If anyone has tips, suggestions of how you made it through these days let me know!