Sometimes when I go home to California I still think I will see Carrisa......
Every time we go to my mom's house the whole family gets together, everyone comes over, and for a second I had a hint of excitement that I was going to get to see Carrisa and tell her all about Norah, it was such a strange feeling.....
Sometimes when I go home I get the visitor who wasn't my best friend, but my sisters
Sometimes when I go home I want to soak up all the beauty that surrounds us, the trees, the smells, the moments that stand still, because this is the place I once new life without loss
Sometimes when I go home I just want to spend the entire time outside
Sometimes when I go home there are some really GREAT moments
and Sometimes when I go home I am reminded off the brokenness in our family, the hurt, the way we have all lost the same things
Sometimes when I go home it is hard to talk about
Sometimes when I go home I can see the walls we have built around each other, for protection, so scared of more hurt
but sometimes when I go home there is a moment, a place in time that we all enjoy one another, that we all enjoy the moment and hold onto it realizing how precious it is
Sometimes when I go home I have realized we have all had to learn a new normal,
a family we never anticipated