Monday, November 5, 2012

Sometimes when I go home



Sometimes when I go home to California I still think I will see Carrisa......

Every time we go to my mom's house the whole family gets together, everyone comes over,  and for a second I had a hint of excitement that I was going to get to see Carrisa and tell her all about Norah, it was such a strange feeling.....

Sometimes when I go home I get the visitor who wasn't my best friend, but my sisters
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Sometimes when I go home I want to soak up all the beauty that surrounds us, the trees, the smells, the moments that stand still, because this is the place I once new life without loss
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Sometimes when I go home I just want to spend the entire time outside
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Sometimes when I go home there are some really GREAT moments
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and Sometimes when I go home I am reminded off the brokenness in our family, the hurt, the way we have all lost the same things

Sometimes when I go home it is hard to talk about

Sometimes when I go home I can see the walls we have built around each other, for protection, so scared of more hurt

but sometimes when I go home there is a moment, a place in time that we all enjoy one another, that we all enjoy the moment and hold onto it realizing how precious it is
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Sometimes when I go home I have realized we have all had to learn a new normal, 
a family we never anticipated
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and sometimes when I go home we get attacked by a mob of Chinese people thinking our family is some kind of anomaly.  haha if they only new the whole story 578435_10152188895250725_952684013_n

4 comments:

  1. Well, I have to say that my favorite photo is the one of Candice on the floor with the children. She is looking just lovely. Tell her hello from me, please. I know you had a great time at home and your pictures will help cement the memory for your children in years to come. Thank you Jenni for your enthusiasm in recording and sharing your life with all of us. God bless you.

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  2. ...SWEET -- WRite ON! xox, anotha grammy

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