9 Months Pregnant

Yes Folks, I am just about 9 months pregnant, 39 weeks and baby Sarah is still hanging out in the belly, she seems pretty content right now, no big signs of labor (although I am about 4cm dilated).  Now it is just the anticipation and waiting.

I kind of love the excitement of not knowing when she will come.  I am such a planner, that I love that this one thing in my life is not totally planned, the unknown is kind of thrilling!

I am trying to enjoy the last moments of just having 2 little girls, embracing our time together.   I know that their world is about the change so drastically, but I also know they will love Sarah so much!

My Fears

I do have a few fears, about labor and about having another child

I am nervous, nervous I won't be able to get a hold of Brett when I need to (he has class 3 nights a week with no cell phone reception).  This is one big reason we hired a doula.

I am scared that my water will break at work in the middle of cleaning someones teeth....awkward..

I am scared that for some reason I will have to have a c-section, which I really don't want

I am scared to be a stay-at-home mom.  I feel like I don't know how to do it, and I won't be good at it, or I may even go crazy!

I am scared to have a social worker come to our house with an infant in hand

I am scared we won't have enough money to buy groceries (have you been to the store lately? prices are out of control!)

I am scared to have 3 children 3 and under and have some sore of sanity

Despite my fears I am looking forward to this new chapter in our lives, it seems so different than anything I have ever known.  I am trusting that the Lord will provide and take care of us.

Here is my pregnancy progression

love this song by Colbie Caillat, take a listen, makes me cry